Saturday, November 23, 2013

Coming out of the dark....

Happy to say that this new thyroid hormone is finally working!  It's taking a long time, but I can feel the fog and exhaustion lifting little by little.  What a shitty way to start off a school year though.
The pain from being so freaking tired is gone, and I've stopped relying on my afternoon coffee to get me through the rest of the day.  That feels so much better, and is so much better on my wallet since my afternoon runs meant a trip to Starbucks and the occasional $4 pumpkin spice latte....

I'm able to get moving in the morning too and don't feel like I'm just waking up around lunch time.  And I'm able to go to bed at a reasonable time instead of staying up until 1 or 2 because I was so wired.

Weird.

The gluten stuff is still there....I stupidly ate a piece of pepperoni pizza yesterday (it was from Regina--how could I pass it up?) at lunch, and I've felt sick all day, ranging from ridiculously hungry to wanting to throw up. I should know better.

The brain fog/memory stuff comes and goes, and that drives me insane.  I was going to type something about this, and it's gone....it will come back.  I hope.

Oh, now I remember.  I had bloodwork done in October, and the hospital has switched labs.  Because of the switch, they have a new assay of numbers, so I don't know if I'm undetectable or not.  The Tg number was 3.1, and in the past it had to be under 2 to be considered undetectable.  I'm hoping that I don't go back in a few months to find out that the cancer is back....Plus, I still have evidence of thyroid antibodies which means I still have Hasimoto's--bizarre.  How can I have this stuff without a thryoid?  I read somewhere that you can and it can take years for the antibodies to go away.
The fallout from thyca is unbelievable--don't ever tell me "it's the best cancer to have", or I will deck you.

On a happier note, even though my body acts like it's 10 years older than it is, someone the other night thought I was about 10 years younger than I actually am!  I was at BLS' annual alumni dinner.  I love when I tell people that this is my 24th year in education, and their eyes bug out.  This person was amazed and told me she thought I was in my mid-30s.  She nearly died when I said I was 45.  Little did she know that I had on enough spandex to outfit a swim team under my dress....still, that made me feel good.

My crash on synthroid added more weight around the middle, so shopping for shopping for clothes is not pleasant.  I spent about 5 hours looking for a suit or dress for the dinner mentioned above, and couldn't find anything that fit even close to ok.  Luckily I had a dress that I could wear, but my dressy wardrobe is severely limited by the self-esteem issues created by my thyroid craziness.  I'm by no means petite, but I'm probably not as large as I think I am.  My total lack of desire or energy to exercise hasn't helped--however, I actually had a thought the other day that I should get on my stationary bike and start pedaling....I didn't, but I haven't felt good enough to have that thought in months.

So that's where I'm at right now...still some room for improvement.